Do you ever feel like you are always in the waiting room? Waiting to find out the diagnosis, the outcome, reaching a certain goal or waiting to see whether a behavior will stop? I constantly feel as though I’m in my own waiting room with Addy – never knowing if and when the waiting will end.
Will we ever have a diagnosis or fix for her in-toeing? Will she ever be able to sit through a movie? Learn how to read? Eat independently? And finally, will she ever function independently?
I may not ever get the answers to all my questions and for others, it may take years to get any type of answer. The waiting can be debilitating, frustrating, scary, and often stretches every bit of my limited patience.
However, last Sunday (as I do every Sunday) I took Kirsten Ferguson’s Intention Setting Sundays class on Peloton. In these classes she shares her intentions for the week, month, or year in hopes to help or inspire others. In this class, she spoke about “the waiting room.” All the frustrations, and unknows that come along with it, but she also mentioned the beauty and the strength that also comes in waiting. Once that goal or answer we have been waiting for is revealed, you are so much stronger and wiser because of the patience and strength achieved during that waiting period. She highlighted that there is a reason for the wait as it is part of our journey and sometimes, the answer is in the waiting room, we just don’t see it.
So instead of hating or dreading the waiting, perhaps we need to find the joy, the passion, the strength in it as Kirsten suggested. It’s not easy and she reminds us that she too struggles in the wait, but the lesson and strength she attains during the waiting period, far outweighs the benefits of getting the outcome.
I personally, want to thank Kirsten for sharing her story, her Intention Setting Sundays as she has inspired and made my waiting room a little bit more palatable. From one ratchet mamma to another…. THANK YOU! And to those in a never-ending waiting room, YOU GOT THIS!
Much love,
Raising Addy
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